Trying to cope during this illegal lockdown has been very trying for almost everyone. Well everyone who isn’t rich or on a government payroll.
I have been wearing a mask in public since it was first deemed helpful. Volunteered with a group of disabled and homebound ladies who were sewing masks for 1st responders in our local area.
Now that it has been deemed ‘mandatory’ by local and state governments it has just added to the stress of people I know.
Two friends have recently confided in me that they have broken down and cried. Their lives are not sad or bad in any way from their or my perspective.
The constant in your face covid-19 news, the disinformation and the protests are taking an unseen toll on some very good people.
The media could be a better agent for the general public if they would also press the issues with local governments regarding absolute police reform, or any number of real issues affecting real people. I blame our current president and his administration for most of the disinformation coming at us as I blame most media outlets for not seeking the truth. @NBC @CBS @CNN @ABC and everyone knows only fiction is sold @FOX
I have not had television service since 2009. I found it unnecessary and refused to sit in front of a tv set at certain required times of day/night to watch specific programming.
Did I miss a lot of great comedy, drama, news? Maybe, but maybe not.
I spend a lot of time alone. I am ok with silence. It helps me to grow. (Although it would be nice to have zero thoughts in my head…..)
I do spend time on the internet like most people do nowadays. Researching specific news items that a co-worker or friend has mentioned. Reading up on other countries and seeing the unrest across our planet.
Earlier this morning I was outside drinking coffee, walking around my patio/yard. Trying to keep myself occupied and away from my thoughts.
I started thinking of these crazy times we live in. Of how much more complicated it is to just run to the corner store.
I thought about going to visit a friend, but the thought of having to wear a mask for a couple hours while hanging out is just too much for me. Not that I do not care about my friends. Quite the opposite. I will go and visit my friends who cannot get out in public and I will sit for 2 hours in a mask to protect them. Its just getting to be too much.
All the people that do not see the mask issue as a ‘thing’ to complain about, have not been wearing a mask since March/April like a huge amount of us have been. It is now August.
We are all getting tired of having to go out with masks, disinfecting our hands and steering wheel after each return to our cars. Tired of wiping down counters, doorknobs and lightswitches at our homes and offices, because no one knows what is spreading the virus.
I keep thinking outdoors is safer than indoors. I try to spend time on the weekends outdoors, alone though. I don’t trust anyone out there walking around to know how to keep their hands clean. (And these morons with their nose sticking out of their masks… wtf do you think you’re doing?… just don’t wear the mask at all if you can’t wear it correctly.)
The stress and the depression that is coexisting with this virus/epidemic and illegal lockdown is getting to be much too much.
I won’t reach out to anyone to work through this because I have too many people that reach out to me, to lean on me, to speak their stress and depression. I can’t do that. For if I cry it solves nothing. But I need to cry. I need to speak to the stress and depression.
Alone with thoughts for too long may not be a good thing.